Why Am I So Bad With Posts?

I'm really sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been super busy. Junior year of high school is not fun, not one bit. I feel like shit cause I have a cold, and I'm worried because I don't wanna miss even one day, and I don't wanna get audited. High school sucks. Michael, the boy I am currently going out with, I love him to death, but I must say, all guys are the same, huh? I really love him a lot. I do, but after 4 months of dating, he dropped out romantically, which is definitely upsetting because that's part of the reason why I fell for him in the first place. Because of his lack of romance, and his need for solitude, I'm alone a lot of the time, which really upsets me because, and yes I admit this, I'm one of those annoying stalker girlfriends who constantly needs attention. I'm pretty constant with it though, so I'm a bit upset about the fact he's stopped reminding me I'm pretty and sweet and cute, etc. I mean, I know he thinks that, but I want that reassurance. He makes sure to reminds me he loves me, but never why he loves me, or how much. I mean, maybe I'm asking for too much or I'm high strung, but I really just want him to go back to being him. I feel like a dork blogging about my high school love life, and you know, I kind of am a dork, and that's okay. I mean, I'm a teenage girl, what do people expect? Well anyways, I explained how he is in ROTC, yes? Well there was a military ball last Friday that I went to with him. I got very dressed up and fancy, wore a very revealing and attractive dress, and he got me a corsage and it was great, at first. When we got there there was a dinner, announcements, stories, etc., I didn't mind. What I did mind is the fact he told me to be quiet, polite and courteous before hand, and he was sitting there screaming profanity and terrible inappropriate jokes like across the room with his buddies which I didn't understand and I felt terribly left out and confused. I sat there looking like a fool, and yes he paid lots of attention to me, but I still felt left out because all of these jokes, convos, etc., were being thrown around and I didn't get it at all. Afterwards a large group or ROTC kids, me and Michael all went to IHOP, and it was about 12am. We all fumbled around with the waiter trying to find a good seating arrangement. I was tired, and I still felt left out, and I sat there and ate with Michael and his buddies still confused, and lonely. It was a pretty confusing and kinda bad night. I mean, it was great because of him. He made it great, just everything else was just so much. Ugh. I feel dumb. So at school there's this rumor that I cheated on Michael with another kid I know and am friends with, Jack. Yes, Jack is cute, and sweet, treats me like a princess, etc., but he is no Michael, and I wouldn't trade, ever. I love Michael to pieces, and I have noooo idea where this rumor came from and it hasn't put a strain on Michael and I's relationship, it's ruined almost all of my friendships. Almost everyone I know like hates me now. All of my used-to-be-friends left, and at school it's just me and two or three other people. It's stupid. I don't even understand. The rumor is, is that I made out with Jack at a school dance, when in truth I danced with him once, hung out with my "date" Mitchel and danced the whole night with Alexis. It's ridiculous. I don't even know how the rumor got started cause jack was all over his ex all night and THEY were making out which made no sense. I'm still confused, but I guess people need to hate someone, and I guess that someone is me, huh? Wow, lots to say huh? I'm a miss chatty Cathy, huh? Anyways I might not post again for a while, but I always appreciate views, comments, followers, etc. I'm not gonna force you to, but I do enjoy it. Well goodbye everyone, and I hope your life is going much better!